1. To disturb greatly; make uneasy or anxious.

2. To throw into great confusion.

yes. i am truly perturbed. perturbed by her poetic solemn smses. perturbed by her taggy. perturbed by the testi. perturbed by his past that keeps haunting me.

seriously, i thought i can live in peace.but love always find its way to test us. well, i guess if love is reali that simple, i doubt ppl will learn to treasure love that much aftall. make sense doesnt it.

it've only been a sweet (goin-to) 4 weeks, n so so many obstacles arise between us. n dear doesnt seem tired of overcoming all for me.. the stuff i chance doesnt make me feel any better, which once again awoken up my low self esteem n low self confidence.. n yet, i continue to believe.. believe in him, believe in us, believe in the four-letter word called Love.

to appear undisturbed is denial to thy self n to him. but i know it's time for me to shelf that part of emotion in me and immerse myself in the festive season with dear. i know i can do it. i must.


my xmas wish for 2006 is simple. i just wan a fresh clean 2007 with my love. is it that difficult