Monday, December 18, 2006 @ 2:36 AM
jus got back frm jess's surprised bdae party by her bf.. sweet on chong's part.. but wasnt enjoyable for me actuali cos i felt kinda weird, not knowing most of her friends and feeling so distant frm an old fren. that's the feeling i hated most. but i guess i shd b contended that i met up with them.
tell me tell me..
how shd one feel when u see ur partner's frenster Who I Want to Meet column change to 'my (mind u, is my n not any) plainjane', when u know u wasnt the plainjane he refers to. n he told ya he put it 'just for fun'.. such small incident affects me so much it got me real scare.. pout*
in the end, guess the onli explainable answer all boils down to my insecurity. many a times, the assurance i got was contradicted by the many small actions. i feel so unsure..so lost..so confused. why cant i take things more lightly.
im so afraid to commit so deep. why cant love just b simple.
i cant sleep.
