Tuesday, October 31, 2006 @ 1:20 AM

!!

found moi 1st 3 mth fren..lol..its nice catching up with an old friend..the last time we chatted was like.. 5 years ago! my gawd.. but he can rem im the Rose of titanic in our 1st 3mth sabo.. which i oredi long forgotten.. time really flies man.. im so young and bubbly den.. what happened to me.. shrugged*

happy bdae shijia!"!! half envy half happy seeing her leavin us happily with jai to celebrate her bdae.. i really hope jai is the one for her =)) so what if hes an indian chinese! stil rem how we both poured our hearts out crying in sch toilet..how we skipped lec tgr to cycle cos we're so moody.. n now.. juz seeing her found her xin fu makes me envy her.. but i do miss the time we spent so much time tgr.. but i noe our frenship will nvr end.. =)))

jia you jia you.. i wan to b happy again! i will not allow him to put me down times n times again. i have moi worth.. i noe moi friends appreciate me! rite rite... heh

Monday, October 30, 2006 @ 2:20 AM

today is well spent! im a happy gal! im J'me!

late for work todae cos i told moiself i must must take public transport and no more cabby.. heh heh.. shop was relatively quiet n i managed to get some Management Accounting into moi head.. im so lagging behind moi work!!!!! met lotte n mark for supper in tpy (thou kelv was supposed to turn up.. but he didnt.. hurhur).. mark turned out to be a fren's ex bf.. wad a small world! n he gave me a unique touch to moi name Jamie.. J'me is the new spelling! i like it!

reali wana study tmr for moi FR test n so i msged stone.. (yes again..i sux!) n of cos.. the expected cliche ans.. "dont think so" =((( i really juz wana find fren study wad.. but no one's free.. luckili lotte's free! im goin study tmr in a big big hse.. excited* i hope its fruitful cos i dont wana miss another test thou!!

its a day well spent except for that msg. me n moi itchy fingers..

but i do miss him alot. n im shocked it'd been 2 mths n i've yet to move on. shit. pull hair. panic*

Saturday, October 28, 2006 @ 6:54 PM

celebrated bestie's bdae yest [27 Oct, Fri].. we went Vivo Tangs shopped like crazy with our $20 discount vou.. hehheh.. it was planned that i bring them to the Turquoise Room for her bdae.. but when we finally made our way there (aft almost being chased by wild dog), 4 hunger strickened gals found out that it was closed for a wedding function.. #@*$T^*#B went to HV 211 Terrace cafe instead.. hoho.. nice ambience!!

oh well..and the night's spent at phu phu.. not a bad night actuali..lotsa weird ppl ard but well.. entrance n drinks' free! lol.. lav lost her phone thou.. haiz..

woke up todae to a sweet sweet dream.. its so damn sweet its not gona come true kind.. sighz.. i shd have sleep on forever.. browsing moi comp pics.. and i realized.. moi last shot with him was taken way back on moi bdae.. 30/6 at 7pm.. =_(( its damn sad to think abt that.. and this is the pic i will treasure..

Friday, October 27, 2006 @ 3:00 AM

im so damn sure im not alrite. im not even motivated to go school nor even touch moi notes. i hate travelling to and fro places alone. i hate eating da bao EVERY dae. im getting sick of shoppin alone. i want to change every way i look and everything i have. im jus rambling. ignore me.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006 @ 2:48 AM

i want to grow old with him, to acc each other thru the many obstacles in life.. i know this is wad i wanted.. this is what i forsee whenever i see old couples tgr..

but often, we fail to realize.. we do not get most of our wants in life with our limit power.. no matter how i behave is wrong. no matter what i do is redundant.. and i really wish i can blog happier stuff.. =S

Sunday, October 22, 2006 @ 4:08 PM

damn down and stress and misunderstood and sad. i turned to him, again. i realize when im crying when im down, i really duno who to turn to beside him..jus hearing that familiar voice calm me down enough. im dead.

i really really really miss him so much aft all these mths..but i noe, he hates me behaving this way. im not supposed to hang on anymore as told.

oh well.. im tryin.

Thursday, October 19, 2006 @ 3:22 AM

hes finally out of my life.. and im finally givin my heart and mind that well deserved break before i go real crazy. im goin to find back my long forgotten self esteem and self confidence, and embrace the world of happiness soon.

i appreciate the friends who are there to pull me up -> yt, jac, jos, gina, diana, lotte, jj, wzg, dav..thanks na.. i m waking up after my last phone chat.. see me thru to my new life k, n assist me in finding back my self esteem.. lastly, i really appreciate u all. sincerely, thanks.

:))))))

Tuesday, October 17, 2006 @ 1:01 AM

"u jus have to accept everythin is over, stop thinking of the other person, and conc on your work"
if it can be as simple as said. its almost 2 mths and obviously, im not ready for anythin.

i juz wan to b close with him n him only.

"(

Sunday, October 15, 2006 @ 1:10 PM

tiring. heartache. disappointments. numb.

i will miss the past 4 daes when hes friendly with me again. but both of us are heading the wrong directions, and interpreting wrong signal.. the only right thing i can do now is to stop contacting, before i fall back in again.

:((((

Friday, October 13, 2006 @ 2:04 PM

i want to perm my hair, polish my teeth, put braces, learn driving and go diving. :(((((((

bring me the money!

[11,12 Oct - Wed & Thur]
everything seems so unreal. i feel like im living in my own dream. i enjoyed the company during work. and the nice Sentosa scenery from Vivo city. thou wad he rems was of looking at the exact same scenery with her, thou im still nothin. i must learn to be contended.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006 @ 12:48 AM

no more attention :(((((

Monday, October 09, 2006 @ 2:18 AM

im a confused soul. i hate pretending not to miss someone's pressence. but i must master the art of pretence now. at least infront of him. for fear thur's wouldnt come truee.

Saturday, October 07, 2006 @ 3:08 PM

Here is your single's love horoscope
for Sunday, October 8:

You have a keen eye for sorting the good from the bad, with love, every person is a mixed bag. The dark parts make the light more visible, after all. Learn to accept the total person, not just the parts you like.

stone suddenli cancelled out on Sun as predicted (even thou i crossed my fingers damn tight for daes). and brian called to ask me acc them go fetch hx back from his seminar.. is it all fated? its damn scary to tink of it this way.. im confused.

Friday, October 06, 2006 @ 1:16 AM

will i get my gift when he returned from his seminar...?

Thursday, October 05, 2006 @ 2:18 AM

04 OCt Wed.

super moody. suddenli got the urge to run on the way home. and indeed, i ran. in my sneakers. running shoes was spoilt due to prolonged shelving. ha. ran round my estate and did a round about my pri sch. tears stung.

one of the moody moody dae. running is my least fave sport, but i actuali enjoyed the moment tonight. i can forsee myself running more. another solitary sad sport