Sunday, July 09, 2006 @ 4:21 AM
All these while i thought i had learnt a lesson about Cherish. but i think otherwise now.
'i had cherished someone who i know onli for 3 daes, for 3 years.' the exact same words i can remember from my memory.
and now, all i heard is '..only know for less than 6mths, and do not understand each other well.' so much for cherishing. oki fine, i rub in with the 'rush too fast into this rs'. i thought time allows to prove things wrong, but time had make a fool of me again. People taught me to put in effort for what you wan in a rs. but i felt like ive made a total fool of myself in trying to save it.
I drenched myself in unhappiness over his ex's actions. A cool off will be cool, i thought. Giving myself time to get over it and all will be well again aft my stupid phase. I thought cherishing rather than giving up will be good. Instead, im being showed otherwise. Strings are broken almost immediately. somehow my world crumbled.
Instead of cherish, love, im being showed sympathy. I thought somehow or others, things might be fine. in the end, it turned out ive portrayed myself pathetically from my usual tap-running tears and drinking. or so thats how someone made me feel. patching things up just cos not to see me sad.
That instant, it strikes me. my love have been degraded. Love is not charity. it seems ive woken up from another bad bad dream.
Days passed. Life goes on. We dont force Love. for when Love comes and u lose that chance to cherish, u have disappointed Cupid. I had done my part in trying. and the someone who have degraded my love seems more than fine. 'i hate petty people', 'ur low confidence in urself disappointed me', 'huh, why are u stil crying'(why cant i even have the right to feel sad and cry @!$(RY#*$&), 'can u be more responsible and grow up and stop crying' are the last few impacted words curved into my memory. Its funny how human brain always choose to absorb wrong things and missed the nice one.
oh well, just trying to be optimistic, this love loss has its greatness thou. It will revive a years-long cherished friendship between a frog and a mouse.
happy ending.
The starting stability of this rs has caused me to brood too much into the future. and my naivety can never survived in this era.
Have more patience with me friends! i hope to be fine soon too, just buy me more beer! =))
