Sunday, June 25, 2006 @ 3:00 AM
Why is it that as ppl grow older.. they are becoming more and more reluctant to celebrate their bdaes. Its not about ppl afraid of facing the fact that they're older, but simply they just dont want to face the disappointments that friends forget your bdae or 'cant find the time' to celebrate with you.
Two dear grps of friends cant find a single dae in one whole wk (yes 7 daes) to have a simple dinner with pathetic me. and another grp of friends simply dont even bother to want find time to meet up. This grp of sec sch guy frens who i tot have been nice to acc me thru the bad times, simply dont even bother anymore. and it sucks to see ppl's real character thru a supposedly joyous occasion. f*cking disappointed.
i simply not looking forward to my stupid dae. not even if im goin to celebrate with stone. I jus dont think its worth it to spend extravagantly on a stupid dae celebrating the birth of a self-centered misunderstood bitch.
Hearing how sweet pearly had helped him celebrate his 19th last time make me realized no one have ever cared me enough to celebrate my bdae wholeheartedly, not even my own parents, for as long as i can rem. For as long as im with him, i can nvr ever stop linking them tgr and its killing me softly. I simply cant overcome myself. Just like how ppl cant overcome the temptation of betting.
Why do i even exist in the first place
