Friday, June 16, 2006 @ 8:28 PM
Hi ppl, im back.. its been quite some times. oh well.. World cup n mj fever.. wad else..>.<
sank into depression mode for 3.5 daes to be exact. even that stupid dying thought sprung alive once again after the many months. all started with an unknown planned bkk trip of my 'close' frens. If only i had know the tics r actuali affordable for me. If only i wasnt lured by her make believe indispensable story of me. I just hate myself for always carrying high expectation of ppl..
is it alrite to have no expectations for friends?
i miss many ppl. amidst all there is this group of friends that tries to help and talk me out of my 'failed rs', who i feel delighted and comfortable meeting daily, who i feel happy just sitting ard checking out gals with them. but now things change so quickly im left out.
suspect there may actuali be an unknown perfectionist sleeping inside of me. and that is giving me tons of trouble.
felt guilty havin that argument abt hatred with stone todae. it all started with my infamous dad. i guess its juz how ppl have different character and opinions of life. It just verrrrrrrry frustrating not having ppl to understand u. sorry darl.
ayeee.. i must learn to overcome my own challenge of myself before having expectation of anyone anymore. guess this the onli way my life will have less misery. or happy.
haiz
