Saturday, February 04, 2006 @ 4:19 PM
Been quite sometime since i last dropped an entry.. kinda no mood for anythin lately.. dont know wad's wrg with me..
Knowing how upset someone was yesterday makes me really xin suan.. thankeew for telling me.. but knowing someone gotten drunk make me feel worse.. stayed up til 630am to wait for somethin, any indication that someone's home safely.. nothin. Woke up to no msges.. kinda worried.. and realized..well.. someone juz doesnt seem to bother sayin gd mornin anymore.. feeling kinda stupid to show the care suddenli.. vividly rem that msg 'i dont care, nobody cares' oh well.. guess im invisble.. no one appreciates my concern anyway..
'a farking player who treats gal like a commodities'
Why will anyone say this to hurt someone 'dear'? why would anyone be so naive to even willingly be juz a commodity, a tool.. ...
JJ & gang dragged me out of hse at 1am to chill like uncles at s11.. checkin out baby lians.. ha.. thanks.. appreciate their presence whenever i'm really down.. if not for them i would have been all madness again..
Guess as said.. short happiness will jus bring more bittersweet sorrow in near future.. n i'm 4mths to 22 and i stil cant handle my own life.. so much for being independence.. wtf
..if only all the i love you are true..
