Sunday, February 26, 2006 @ 7:07 PM
'aint you having fun with others?' yuckz
no appetite for dinner.. duno to b angry or thankful man.. ..
@ 4:49 AM
handphone. a necessity that creeps into everyone's life. like an inborn instinct telling us how to walk, handphone instinctively comes into picture when we reached a certain age. n so incorporated in our lives that it seems.. whatever model you carry, whichever way you message, whatever ringtone you set, depicts the owner's very characteristics.
and that's why, i learned to loathe people from the way they replied, using words occupying the 160 characters space that they dont mean it. sometimes, and i mean sometimes, i just wish our handphone have this programe that do not allow the two words 'miss' and 'you' to appear together.
mayb a technology that allow us to block smses send out to a certain mobile number will be great too.
Saturday, February 25, 2006 @ 4:01 AM
happy people. happy dae.
finali a dae that makes me smile.
tink i finali grow used to him not being ard. Nine daes since i last saw him.. unbelievable. trying hard to keep myself busy everydae so i wouldnt think abt it.. but on daes.. my itchy fingers will lift up my fone to msg in the silent night.
well.. i guess i know this time its reali over.. not even gd frens as wad i thought can end up. thou i take a slower time than he did.. i know i can. smile.
jia you jia you!
company for Munich is nice. company for zouk is nice. chattin with my best fren on way to sch is nicest.
=)
Friday, February 24, 2006 @ 2:47 AM
Dramatic night.
n i felt great pain seeing two of my bestest friends that way. esp my precious yt.
no matter how much she compares me to others, i guess i will nvr meet her expectations. n it pierced into the heart whenever complaints r heard again infront of so many, 'vivan do this sheryl do that, why u dont..'
Im truly sorry if i disappoint u. Guess as qinghui often puts in, i dont put in enough effort to people who cares.
I guess my many calls or sms or msn couldnt made up the material effort. I hope i had done a gd job yest. i love you sweet. pls stay happy.. we cannot be two glummy best friends!
Sorry for all my scoldings gals..
Sunday, February 19, 2006 @ 4:10 AM
im soon forgotten, cast out of shelf.. Good friend i thought stil can be.. chuckled. naive thought.
but one trivial remark i will rem forever.
.butterfly teeth.
weird it seems.. but it carved in my memory.
Friday, February 17, 2006 @ 11:03 PM
Was walking home when a sudden flashblack crossed my mind.. ...
It was a cold cold night and he was shagged frm soccer.. shagged and hungry. yet he was downstairs waiting for me for supper.. His legs were wobbly n i had to support him while walkin. It was supposed to b a cool off period den. i was determined beta off remaining as friends. We had beer. We chatted. It was an enjoyable supper. 'How come ur eyes so sparkling tonight' He said. Chuckled.
It was the rainy season in Jan.
Feb.
We forgot the fact that People do change.
only the heart knows how to find what is precious
Tuesday, February 14, 2006 @ 3:15 AM
..Happy Valentine's dae..
its juz yet another dae with no one special
Thursday, February 09, 2006 @ 2:06 AM
Sometimes I feel Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of prosperity
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there's always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say
Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you're sad then it's time you spoke up too
By Fastball - Out of my head
Tuesday, February 07, 2006 @ 9:41 PM
Cooold.. been cold lately.. distanced myself to giv time to another.. time that will allow one to recuperate.. i hope he'l heal and understand.. ..
All i can recall is the silent irritation & disappointment i felt over how u can say 'i love you' with juz a mere impression of my facade... ... i dont need sweet nothings. i need assurance
Saturday, February 04, 2006 @ 4:19 PM
Been quite sometime since i last dropped an entry.. kinda no mood for anythin lately.. dont know wad's wrg with me..
Knowing how upset someone was yesterday makes me really xin suan.. thankeew for telling me.. but knowing someone gotten drunk make me feel worse.. stayed up til 630am to wait for somethin, any indication that someone's home safely.. nothin. Woke up to no msges.. kinda worried.. and realized..well.. someone juz doesnt seem to bother sayin gd mornin anymore.. feeling kinda stupid to show the care suddenli.. vividly rem that msg 'i dont care, nobody cares' oh well.. guess im invisble.. no one appreciates my concern anyway..
'a farking player who treats gal like a commodities'
Why will anyone say this to hurt someone 'dear'? why would anyone be so naive to even willingly be juz a commodity, a tool.. ...
JJ & gang dragged me out of hse at 1am to chill like uncles at s11.. checkin out baby lians.. ha.. thanks.. appreciate their presence whenever i'm really down.. if not for them i would have been all madness again..
Guess as said.. short happiness will jus bring more bittersweet sorrow in near future.. n i'm 4mths to 22 and i stil cant handle my own life.. so much for being independence.. wtf
..if only all the i love you are true..
