Saturday, January 28, 2006 @ 4:06 AM

swollen eyes for cny..
fark up*

Thursday, January 26, 2006 @ 3:42 AM

Ppl, doncha feel a tinge of enviness when you see couple holding hands, smiling, hugging, whispering.. indulging in such simple bliss that rainbowfied their world..

Sometimes, just sometimes.. i wish i'm one of them too.. juz plain blissful happiness..
Just someobody.. someone who will love me as much as i love him..

why are situations always so unfair towards me.. what did i do to deserve all these..

i blinded myself from the truth and turned deaf to my friends.. who are to blame for consequences except myself.. ... i tink i left my heart somewhere..

Wednesday, January 25, 2006 @ 3:05 AM

25 January 2006
0130am

*smile*

Tuesday, January 24, 2006 @ 1:45 AM

Finally found the cny candy i've been findin every yr.. the soft pink n white 'sweet'.. all thanks to qh for informin me.. ")

anw..been spending lotsa time tgr.. kinda feel 'attached'.. yet i dont know whether its right to feel this way.. what's right what's wrong what's happiness...... does it stil matters?
when we grew older.. we just lost our feelings of such and numb to all situations.. ... yet sometimes, the environment makes me feel gullible, pursuing definite answers to all questions.. yes it stil matters to me..

Saturday, January 21, 2006 @ 5:05 AM

Andy named me Pistachio Yap todae.. funny how i always appeared so cheerful infront of them

Neverending episodes in progress now.. .......

'Sometimes my mind play tricks on me..'
I'm really just a Basket Case (Green Day)

Thursday, January 19, 2006 @ 2:34 AM

wow.. jj rem my hse num!.. amazing.. its like 9 yrs..!!!

Trying very hard to be firm on my decision.. No matter how much i miss him or cry, i know its for the better. Nothing will turn out good in the long run even if happiness fills me now. I know its crazy of me to abandon such happiness now, but when i realized jealousy and possesive come knockin on my door.. i know i fall deep in already. If i dont control myself now, one dae i may become mad. MAdly in love with the wrong person.

argh.. feelin.. empty.. its weird how things turn out this way so sudden even i myself is not comfortable with it.. ...............

so much for determination.. i met him for supper.. but things appeared alri with us remainin as frens.. thou inside me is almost screaming..boo..

Sunday, January 15, 2006 @ 4:02 PM

i cant believe i'm bloggin now.. ha.. tmr's gona be my last dae.. finali.. really needa catch up with all the sch work i missed.. Manager been persuading me not to quit as they've yet to find a replacement.. but.. ayee.. i'm firm! for the sake of my study.. n not money..

YET.. i feel.. a tinge of bu she de.. i mean.. i been workin for starhub for the passed 3 yrs~ friends who came in with me in the job have all converted to permaneant staffs and earning a stable income while i'm stil sloggin, workin at a pathetic 7 per hr.. sulk*
Had a small conversation with manager juz now and its funny how everyone juz tell me the same thing - Why are u stil studyin? What u plan to do aft graduate? Why nvr tot of becoming a permaneant staff and work for Starhub?
And know wad? seriously. i dont know wad am i goin to do man.. tot of juz stayin ard in Telcom industry aft i graduate.. but aint i wasting so many opportunites these yrs?

oooki.. i'm so bored.. sigh.. and i'm stil so vexed n confused over wad's been happening.. I know what i wan.. everythin is happy and all.. but so? some things r nvr meant to be mine.. ....

Wednesday, January 11, 2006 @ 11:13 PM

yaoyao: biting satire. says:
haiku is juz 5,7,5 syllable

yaoyao: biting satire. says:
lian is so fragile
lian is the bad boy magnet
please handle with care

yea!.. someone wrote abt me!.. hahahahaha

anw.. its another rainy dae n i skipped marketin again..wth.. and i tot i'l meet him todae.. but nope.. mr dota freak is glued to his comp the whole dae n happily msged me says hes out with the guys le.. boohoo
wad can i do.. but onli to miss him.. sulk*

officially stayed home the whole dae todae.. suckz..

@ 7:49 PM

Sometimes the road ahead is paved by anything but good intentions... says:
it was about persuasion

Sometimes the road ahead is paved by anything but good intentions... says:
then the lecturer said we shouldnt be busy trying to detect who are the ones who will hurt us or harbour ill intentions

Sometimes the road ahead is paved by anything but good intentions... says:
instead.it is ourselves we should focus on

Sometimes the road ahead is paved by anything but good intentions... says:
people with low self esteem will suffer

sigh.. self esteem.. wad's mine?

@ 3:31 AM

todae i'm supposed to get a surprise frm someone - a surprised packed supper outside my workplace when i knocked off.. How true nei?

heh.. but that thought is sweet enough.. = )

i'm risking it now..

Tuesday, January 10, 2006 @ 3:10 AM

How much will u risk it for love?

Monday, January 09, 2006 @ 1:36 AM

oki.. dont know why i'm in such a bloggin mood todae.. this is my 3rd post for the dae!

[1245am].. famished! decided to go down Esso grab a bite.. grrrr.. super cold wind.. n walkin down the empty street alone just make my mood even worst (quarrelled with dad la.. he dont allow me talk on the fone again! slammed my already spoiled bedroom door!..argh)
Cant decided btw Myojo Seafood or Nissin Seafood, so end up settling for Nissin Tom Yam to be fair.. hahaha.. and grab a can of milo off the fridge ( i was choosin btw packet or can, decided to settle for can cos it looks more appealing ha)

stepped on an irritatin puddle of water that wet my whole feet..argh

to make my night worst....... was readin off my can of milo's label.. 'Another innovation frm Nestle, Milo with a combination of Vitamins and Magnesium to help in the release of energy from Carbo, Fat and Protein in your food' damn coooool..release energy in the middle of the night.. wtf! i'm that shagged la n now i cant zzz.. a sudden rush of new found energy.. all becos i decided to choose that can of milo over the packeted milo..! see.. this proves that looks can be deceiving.. lol !@^$($&@!

Sunday, January 08, 2006 @ 9:10 PM

'How do you say goodbye to someone who you barely say hello to?'

Charming with a lil whimsiness, Elizabethtown become one of my fave movies on list.. i mean duh... who can resist a show casting Kirsten Dunst!!! n Orlando Bloom (not exactly a big fan of him but he indeed carved quite an impression on me in this show).

Basically its a movie with a simple plot who introduced you to characters who felt so real, so dear.. who i actuali missed aft the 123 min show!.. a thought provoking movie which draws my attention to kinda lotsa matters - relationship with Dad, success, and love, how ppl are substitutes in one another's life..yet willingly indulgin themselves in the short happiness.. sound like me..? ha.. Beside the point.. this movie has really good soundtrack too..! i mean, when's the last time a movie soundtrack captured our heart? The City of Angel, Coyote's Ugly, Moulin Rouge.. and den? This the movie with the right songs and the right cast.. oh yea.. heh

Click below to check out the official webby! its cool!

www.elizabethtown.com

Saturday, January 07, 2006 @ 2:55 AM

anyway took lotsa silly pics while stonin at coffeebean todae..
all started when i just wana take pics with my Japan goodies frm my sweet xiao qi.. but dont know who insist on takin the pics with them first...roll eyes*

yess... U took away my virgin pics with my sweet goodies!... u good u good.... tsk...

FINALLY!!!

aint they cute!!"!""!!!! thanks = )

@ 2:49 AM

madness.. that ass shit ruined my nite again n its 2006! wtf.. start all his accusation scoldin shit again for nothin.. sayin he needs to tok.. for fark!?!?!... sayin i must realize my stuff etc..alo!??!
if YOu have the heart to wana clear things up and tok, you wouldnt wait til tonight farkass...

you think u are right in all ur ways, u always made it sound like i'm in the wrong for everythin, as if i'm childish i dont know how to handle.. but theres more den meet the eyes.. one dae, just one dae.. u will noe wad i mean. sprout all ur nonsense at me now.. go on.. u can make me real angry and seem like i'm insane.. but one dae.. WE will make u faint and humilitated.. you wait.. .......

ANGRY real angry.. why must u come back.................

Friday, January 06, 2006 @ 10:59 PM

aaaah i'm feelin super stupid and paranoid.. is it becos its the time of the month or simply becos of no reply?.. why am i indulgin in the wrong happiness? why am i being so selfish and unfair and disappoint my friends?.. why do i choose this route when i can prophecized that its dark and hideous and i will come out with tons of scratches?..Whats wrong with me? I myself shd have known better after the tim incident nvr to trust guys again..!

its damn scary how one can never ever control her own feelings................................

i hate myself stil...

Wednesday, January 04, 2006 @ 9:53 PM

deAnster Tricia Tricia Tricia... I know too much! says:
it's coz u got tis desire to try and change the bad guys..
deAnster Tricia Tricia Tricia... I know too much! says:
tats y u attracted to them
deAnster Tricia Tricia Tricia... I know too much! says:
coz u believe tat u can change them
deAnster Tricia Tricia Tricia... I know too much! says:
tat is the challenge

*bulleyed*

@ 4:07 AM

A sweet surprise to start out my dae..
He packed me a potato sandwich lunch todae!! of cos his mom's the one who made the potato filling, not exactly like he's the one who made the sandwich .. but his thought of packin one for me is enough to keep me lifted up for the whole dae.. silly? = )

Stoned ard bugis aft sch for time to kill before he went for his soccer, and before i meet mike..

Stupid mike.. mood swing and ended up i havta meet him AND winston.. which is like super duper weird, so i left when i received Ivan's call of meetin up for dinner, thinkin kinda long since i last met him and its an excuse to leave them heh.. Ended up i watched Ivan havin his pepper lunch and me fooling ard with his Transformer.. ate caramel ice cream yum..

Did some shoppin and reached home kinda earli.. but real disappointment to return to an empty house again .. feelin famished at late hours again and so.. off i go to Suriya again.. haha.. packed some supper and ended up watchin American History X with him ... BRILLIANT SHOW! its so fanstatic... i duno what to say.. ha.. shall elaborate it on my next post.. if i'm not lazy heh..

Anyway reached home kinda late again but at least tis time mom mom and daddy's home!.. stil not on good terms thou.. oh well..

Anw meeting him has become some kind of my new addiction i admit..at least i feel comfy and cheery whenever i see him.. no more depressed sulkin sl.. guess he's really a gd friend to have.. but.. are we just friends? i'm so confused i can die.. and things are sure gona get messier.. better stop before i get myself hurt all over again..

but like cigs.. such addictions are hard to control and difficult to curb.. guess i must retain large dose of self control and discipline to make it works..

Tuesday, January 03, 2006 @ 3:37 AM

oh great.. first 2 daes of 2006 rushed passed me like nobody's business.. and the person i spent my countdown with is unbelievably him.. yt why u nvr pick up my calls!

Tinkin back.. i had spent my 2005 New yr with the SRC ppl.. but look at us now.. we aint that close anymore..so many things had changed..
i really dread lookin back at 2006, thinkin what is this friend of mine i spent my first hours with is doing now.. ppl come and go.. and i'm sure this new friend will just be like one of those.. madness, but true..

'found affection and solace in the wrong arms..' guess dean is so right in making that statement..

Addiction: The condition of being habitually or compulsively occupied with or or involved in something; Habitual psychological and physiological dependence on a substance or practice beyond one's voluntary control.

doesnt that sound like me? my gawd... .......