Sunday, December 18, 2005 @ 4:14 AM
What turns out to be a counsellin section ended up as a quarrelling section again.. n all becos both hit on the sensitive topic on mr 'taboo' again..
Very different view over the issue thats sooo over.. yet i stil cannot accept the way she handled this whole issue n i brought out the topic of 'What is best friend' again..
n so.. more crying n 'screamin'..
i blurted out how i feel she shdnt b my best friend n all.. without thinkin how she feels.. i'm so wrg
Yet..
1) I can never accept the fact that she's helpin him keep secrets which is hurtful and will harm her best friend, thats me..
- if u had really treat me as a best friend, how can u bear to see her hurt KNOWING she will be hurt by ur friend.. and yet keepin all the things from her.. juz cause u do not want to reveal a friend's secret. How shd one react ethically in this situation?.. I nvr tot of this until todae n i thinks its really hard on her part..
- For me.. i would hav screamed at my guy friend and asked him to fuck off my best friend's life.. n scream at my best friend if she dont wana listen to me, until she woke up.. all for her own good.. If this guy is really ur friend.. He will not want to hurt ur friend, nor manipulate his way to spoil a friendship btw 2 gals and make him the sane one..
2) I hurt her by not takin her promise seriously(cos i feel she will break it..yes its broken)
-but guess situation ain't fo rme to control yea~
GUYS.. one dae if ya Gd fren ended up with ya Best friend (look at the different category i emphasize).. and ya gd fren come tellin ya he did somethin wrg behind ya best friend's back.. and told ya not to tell the Best friend.. wad will u do? think abt it..
well, for me.. this so called 'gd fren' shd not even hav come to me in the first place to confess he did somethin wrg.. i'm juz a gd fren, not his gf.. This 'gd fren' shd have gone straight to my best friend and confess.. i will not even bother to listen to him tellin me all this.. given my character, i would juz knock sense into him in wadever means i hav..
Yet in reality, the otherwise happened.. a deeply hurt best friend and a tattered friendship which has to be mended over and over again is the result..
Deep in my heart, i blamed her for the past 1 yr +.. blamed her for not helpin in restoring the relationship.. blamed her for keepin so much stuff frm me.. blamed her for breakin her promise of not tokin to the 'gd fren'..
but now.. i realize i'm in no position to blame anyone anymore.. i cant control their frenship.. n it's hard for her too.. everyone is juz so misunderstood.. and all in all.. the question goes back to what is a best friend.. someone u do not bear to see her hurt, the first person to come to midn when there's juicy news, who sacrifice her time juz to have each other's company.. who willing to give n take.. who shares joy n happiness tgr.. Best friend.. thats wad it calls..
Yanting, thanks.. u noe i hate to get into tis topic.. cos its so so over.. but glad we talked tings out again.. n i'm really sorry.. you are juz as used as me.. n being used by a friend is as worst as being used by ur partner.. thanks for tolerating my character too.. hope u can sort urself out now too.. wink* ya shd noe wad i mean sweet.. we both shd stop crying..
i need beeeeeer...
