Friday, November 18, 2005 @ 8:30 PM
yaoyao: ?????????. says:
dun kid yourself
yaoyao: ?????????. says:
u know him well enough
YaNTinG says:
he's not treating u right .. let it go
YaNTinG says:
let him go .. out of ur life k
i really really really really hate myself.. i said i want to stop seeing him. i want to be firm i want to end on my part.. but when he asked me whether to go out last nite.. no matter how strong i appeared to be.. i ended up saying yes.. and i deserved the disappointment todae when he said he no mood doubt can dinner.. and when his msg came in again asking where am i i happily replied!.. and again.. disappointment when theres no reply from him anymore.. who am i to him? in anybody's shoe.. why will anyone treat a person this way? mistreatment i would call.. but accusation he would say..
love can really make one goes hysterical.. trivial daily matter of no replies and no answering of calls makes me cry n cry everydae.. uncontrollable msges sent out expressing my anger and disappointment irritates him.. but all i ask for is to be treated with respect, to be treated with courtesy and integrity, to be treated fairly.. yet in my utmost frustration of waiting for hrs and hrs for replies and calls.. all i gotten are words directing at me seeming its like my fault.. being accusing, that i'm thinkin obscuring and its wrong, that my sensitivity are affecting my judgement .. my judgement of him?.. dont say u like a person until ure sure of it.. for like is kin to love.. for if u like a person, u will never bear to see her hurt.. for if u like the person.. u will want to spend time with her.. for if u like the person.. u will wan to be there when she really needs u..
but u always choose to do otherwise...
why cant we communicate? why do we always have to end up this way?
