Wednesday, November 30, 2005 @ 2:18 AM
Anybody believe in love at first sight?
I truely do.
Once upon a time... ...
2004
It took her nearly 2 mths to see this person again after that first only sight outside Wisma.. and another 3 wks to know this person fatefully.
Soon, one mth of their lives was shared officially together.. wonderful sweetness she longed to feel forever..yet..tis naive gal was not contended she lost out to a sucidal ex in the end.. devotion, he cant give. Upsets disappointments frustrations jealousy visted her life.
2005
Daes in between months they'l spend together again.. Without committment, complications accusations arguments tortured her.. Daes, wks, mths passed. More and more characters appeared. Her devotion is deemed useless.. for 7 mths, she was persistent to move on.She tried her best..
One fateful dae, they started talking again. She thought she's able to continue this unseemingly 'relationship' for the sake of all the short happiness tgr. Dumb thought. Things get from bad to worst. and there he is, still able to live his life the way he wants it, enjoying his daes with different characters. .while she's depressed, sobbing wasting her precious life away.. the many hrs, daes of waiting...
One fine dae, a Chopstick theory knocked Naive gal out of her senses. In state of desperation.. she seeks help from Guang ying niang niang. The lot (qian) she prayed for depicts the exact same advice all friends gave. The answer she gotten from Her gives her all the determination and courage to move on.. The sayings of the lot keep repeating in her mind.. With what seem like new found strength, she knows the time has come..
No one bears to leave their memories behind.. much worst to leave the memories with the person you fell in love at first sight behind.
But.. guess I should be contended purely to the fact that at least i get to know this person who took my heart away instantly. One plus yr.. Learning experiences i would say.. thou skeptical and pessimistic i have become of life.. Funny how such incident almost totali change my character..
Decision is mine to make. and from this instant.. i want myself to be happier.. i really do.
I wish this strength will help me climb out of this man-made shithole..
