Thursday, October 13, 2005 @ 12:54 AM
i'm freeeeaaaakkkkinn tired...... as in literally tired of life..
i have no sense of direction where i'm heading........ or rather.. i dun even noe wad i wan to do now........ stonez at lect.. stonez at work.. juz no mood for anything..
Wake up go sch find ppl out come hme msn zzz...Wake up go work supper come hme zzz..
becoming a disgusting routine that i'm so sick of.. the best part of the week is often the chill out time with yiting they all aft work.. but still.. one conflict dae with them will affect me the WHOLE wk.. guess this show how much they meant to me.. but i doubt any of them can understand.. ... mayb.. to them i'm just an outsider.. ...... who noes
did a whole lot of thinking lately..
& it juz makes me more depressed.. wtf..
-Friends are either too busy over projs/bfs or dont even bother to reply my calls/sms..
-Daddy stil refuses to talk to me nicely.. always show that grumpy face & leave the rm if i walked in.. like aloooooo? wad did i do wrg..? Do u noe how demoralise ur OWN daughter is feeling now?
-I stil cant get over wad just happened.. i know i must get over fast & pick myself up again.. but i cant find the courage to do it.. i'm so afraid i'l leave the memories behind.. like he already did..
i'm so so tired of everything.. i just wana strike 4D & pack everything & leave Singapore.. when will i get the life i want?..... am i patient enough to wait for my dream come true?
i miss the dae we mit in our dreams.. we just started on Japan you know.. nowhere else anymore
she's been behind me silently.. thanks.. i learn to treat you better
she's been behind me silently.. thanks.. i learn to treat you better
