Thursday, October 06, 2005 @ 1:44 AM
I opened my eyes todae & my heart felt like it'd been stabbed a thousand times in my sleep..
reached over my bedside and checked my phone. No msg. faint
Depression alarm sounded once again.. there i go again..
23 min aft i woke.. phone rang
He called..
dont really wanna go into detail of the conversation.. but its nothin good nor bad..
did nothin other than lying on bed and hug my bolster & stare into ceiling ..stoned.
manage to drag myself outta bed 3.5 hrs later to grab a bite.. ahhh.. fresh air
watched Eternal Sunshine of Spotless Mind.. wonderful sad show.. finali found the vcd version aft searching for 1+ yrs.. its remorseful why people choose to erase their sad memories.. why go thru the process all over again & got it erased?
went to catch April Snow at night.. some sony ericsson free tics given by yiting.. & i mean FREE.. if not i wouldnt bother to getta hse to catch such film.. its one of the suckiest film i watched.. the most anticipated korean movie in 2005..my ass.. the storyline is stupid in a nutshell.. i guess ppl juz watched it for the sake of bei yon jun..
met yiting tony nicole & mike aft that.. juz being with them always manage to cheer me up.. thou lil' conflicts now & then.. they are the ppl who bring joy to work.. haha.. thou i'm always such a lil whiny trouble.. went punggol & ate nasi lemak.. saw a damn cute bear doggy.. tony manage to send all of us hme todae.. how 'kind' finali... hahaah
decided i shdnt fall further.. shall live life to the fullest & have a slow death from smokin.. at least better than my forever sucidal thoughts wad..
2 sticks
