Tuesday, September 06, 2005 @ 2:26 AM
'jammy and the bad boys' said ken
these words strike jackpot when it appeared in my msn window.. stoned..
Jammism
Often, one tends to resist the person who's nice to them for fear of not being able to reciprocate the kindness she's given.. dont shower me with kindness..i'l run away..
yet hanging on to the person who's ignoring/mistreating u.. being nicer to him.. &..one day, one instant.. a small lil' nice words frm him can brighten up a gloomy dae.. u'l think u like him.. but soon u'l realize.. hey..no.. its juz all a psychologic effect.. human beings enjoy being a winner.. u have that sense of victory when that lil' nice words r heard.. dont believe u fall for a person so easily..dont even believe urself..
i thought i belong to these category of 'winner'..waiting for lil instances to feed my days with energy..
'who knows, i mayb attached next week' i figeted when i saw the words..my heart feels weird.. i don't like the feeling.. mayb i'm not that 'winner' aftall... mayb.. theres feelings for him..-she says
i'm so afraid to meet new ppl.. knowing oneself and working on the trust all over again..i thought i finally overcome myself & open up to newbies.. but why do i fear stil? i tink u need more time than me..
'its not abt searching..its abt one that comes along & makes you believe in eternity'
..i really want to believe..
who don't
